As I write this, I'm approaching 50-hours smoke-free & today was especially difficult! At this point in time, all the nicotine is completely out of my system, my lung function has increased by 30%, my chances of having a heart attack has dropped and my sense of taste & smell has returned to that of a non-smoker. Not to mention there is no longer any carbon monoxide in my system & oxygen levels are back to normal. Yesterday & today, however, I've had a hard time breathing. I can take in deep breaths, but it almost feels as though I'm still smoking. Maybe it's just my lungs beginning to get rid of the debris & garbage smoking left behind. I am starting to cough up some stuff (not to get disgusting, but it's a good thing it's happening)!
As I mentioned, today was difficult! I feel better that I've now passed the 48-hour mark, but today I wanted a cigarette so bad. I prayed for God to remove the desire & He did, but then the Marlboro Man came knocking on my door, hence the title of this blog....the lies he tells me. I thought to myself "I could just have one, one won't hurt me." "I could keep smoking, but cut way down to like three-six a day." "I've smoked this long, what's the point in quitting now!" These are all lies the disease of smoking tells me to keep me in its clutch! I'm stronger than a cigarette & I will defeat this!
My parents came in to Lonestar today to see me & my mom kept asking me: "have you slipped any? Did you cheat at all?" When I said no, she would ask if I was sure. She asked me a couple of times & I can't blame her for asking. She's seen me try to quit twice before & fail at it. This time I'm serious! I was doing some side-work before I left work tonight & was by the door that goes out to the back where people smoke. The General Manager walked out the door, but kept it open as she lit a cigarette to ask me a question. There was someone else smoking out there too. The smell of it made me want to gag! And to look at someone actually put those toxins in their body was a shock to me. All I could see were dollar signs burning up & two lungs & a heart begging for the torture to end!
I've been able to sleep wonderfully since I quit & I know this will get easier. By tomorrow at this time I will have passed the 72-hour mark & that will make me feel so much better! I know there will be tough days ahead, but I know I'm strong enough to defeat the Marlboro Man & all his lies!
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